Seven Deadly Sins Meme - Day 2

[mijan]

DAY 2- Envy!

With this "Deadly Sin," I need to draw a careful distinction between Greed and Envy.  Material goods don't make me envious, although I'd often really like to have more shiny things.  Very little actually makes me truly envious, because I've stopped letting that be so important to me.  However, when I let myself think about it, there are a few things that, when I see them in the spotlight or am reminded that I lack these things, they make me feel a solid twist of envy.  So here they are, in no particular order.


1. Height.  I've always felt I should have been 6'1", because my significantly lesser height simply can't contain my awesomeness.  I don't FEEL short.  I never did.  And so when I am suddenly reminded, at various points in time, that I'm short, I feel a random flash of bitterness that I'm lacking about a foot of height that I SHOULD have, dammit.

2. Clear skin.  Just not fair, okay?  I'm clean, I've used every treatment known to mankind, and unless I use a steady supply of prescription meds just for my own vanity, I still break out like a teenage boy.  Yeah, I get envious of people who have naturally clear skin.

3. Anatomy that fits my gender.  Is that too much to ask? 

4. Perfect eyesight.  I wear contacts.  Most people don't even realize that I need corrective lenses unless they know me very well.  I've needed corrective lenses since I was 10.  I can't make out people's faces from three feet away without my glasses.  Most people don't think of glasses as a prosthetic, but ever since I was in Basic Training for the Army, that's all I can think of them as.  I had to wear these horrible "birth control glasses" while I was in training.  It's not the ugly factor I cared about.  It was that they were heavy, didn't fit right, gave me terrible headaches, got scratched easily, fogged up in the rain, flopped around while I ran, and bordered on torture.  For SIX MONTHS.  And I couldn't take them off, because without them, I couldn't see anything.  With corrective lenses, I was an expert rifleman.  Without them, I wouldn't have been able to shoot the broad side of a barn.  I was absolutely DEPENDENT on them.  To me, corrective lenses are a crutch and a prosthetic and it's terrifying when I've had them taken from me.  Someday, if my doctor says there are no contradictions, and I trust the technology a little bit better, I'm getting Lasik.

5. A spotlight.  Let me explain.  I don't actually give a shit about "fame" in the modern sense, so that's not what I'm talking about.  BUT... I love to entertain.  I got my first taste of a stage when I was 6, but then I joined a semi-pro chorus when I was 12 (it was an adult chorus, and I was the youngest member).  I fucking love to entertain.  I want a stage and a spotlight.  I want to create music for people to listen to.  I want to bring stories and characters to life.  I want an audience to take it all in.  And I want it to be ME up there.

6. The time, money, and resources needed to get a doctorate degree. 

7. Straight teeth.  Never got braces as a kid.  My teeth are healthy.  However, just like my height can't contain my awesomeness, I actually have a small mouth (save the wise cracks) that can't contain my teeth.  Most of them are okay, but I have this ONE that is severely crowded, and it actually kinda hurts.  I want a nice smile.


So, that's what makes me envious.  Huh... that almost seems innocent.  Tomorrow's installment, WRATH, ought to be more entertaining.

Comments

[sphynxle.livejournal.com]

I really like this meme. A lot!

I'm with you all the way on number five. Now that I'm actually getting the self confidence back in my voice, all I want to do is perform or sing for people :)

[avictoriangirl]

I hear you on 1, 2 and 4, but especially on 4. I've had to wear glasses or contacts since 2nd grade and I am blind as a bat without them. It's very scary to think about how lost I would be without them.

[anruiukimi.livejournal.com]

I've become very...secure in my own physical "faults," as it were, but I definitely have had times where 1 has definitely rankled me a bit. But I'm used to being short now, in fact, it has it's advantages sometimes. :D

The one I agree with 150% is #2. It's been better here in Japan, but I had always thought I would have outgrown it too. :/

My brother hated those glasses in Basic too. :/ I don't see why they give everyone such ill...everything glasses. ^^;

[oboros.livejournal.com]

urgh I hear you on the BC glasses. I wore 'em through boot camp as well and they sucked. I got Lasik 6 years ago. Best self bday present ever! I have astigmatism in my left eye and was still able to get Lasik. It basically gave me vision as well as I saw out of it with glasses. Didn't fix it 100% but I can see the stars, and leaves on trees.

[mijan.livejournal.com]

BCG's were evil. And it was less the appearance and more the severe discomfort, the scratches, and... everything, really. I hated the fact that I NEEDED them. I have astigmatism in both eyes, but I know I could still be a candidate for Lasik. I'd need to check it out. Oh, to see the stars without glasses or contacts... sounds amazing.

[hippiegal22.livejournal.com]

Something that has worked wonders with my skin is washing my face with salt water. I've had severe acne since puberty reared it's nasty head. I finally found something that keeps my pimples somewhat at bay. Also taking plain yogurt and putting on your face for about 10-15 minutes a day helps as well. I'm a sucker for homemade beauty treatments. :)

Being fun sized has it's advantages for cosplay. Nobody wants to see a 6'4 hobbit!

[mijan.livejournal.com]

I'll try the salt water, but I can't stomach the idea of putting yogurt on my face.

People might not want a 6'4" Hobbit, but I could be an Elf, or a Rider of Rohan. There are more options for tall people... not as many options for people of my height. But also... nobody wants a 5'1" Jim Kirk. Or a Klingon. Or... most characters, really.

[rowangolightly.livejournal.com]

People who have naturally clear skin have it nice when they're young but believe me, it ain't all roses on this side of it because that also means that I've had crow's feet since I was in college. I work my magnificent ass off to not look my age just because of dry skin.

And I SO get you on number 5. Of course. That's part of why I love playing Queen so much, why I'm so damned good at it and why it hurts so much to be taken arbitrarily away from me.