The Introspective Geek

Fic is currently at 54,000 words, 119 pages.  I expect another 2K to round off the rough draft.  It's been partially beta'd, and it's been test-read by a couple of people.  I still have to finish writing the wind-up scene, but I can do that.  It will be ready in time to submit to the Big Bang folks tonight.

I have to admit, I'm nervous as hell.  I've invested a lot of personal and emotional energy into this fic.  It's gotten into my head, hit on some very personal issues I have, and taken over my thought process.  I've dug into some pretty deep issues in this fic.  I got the plot bunny for it over three months ago, but I only began actively writing it after I got back from San Francisco. 

I guess I'm worried that the fic won't be well-received, or that it will fade into the mess of other Big Bang fics that will be posted and won't be noticed.  Normally, while I want my fics to do well, it's not something that gets me horribly keyed up.  This time, I'm actively nervous, and I really want this fic to be spectacular.  Need this fic to be spectacular.  Not sure why.  I just do. 

The wait between now and when it gets posted, however, is what's going to kill me.  All that time, not knowing how it'll be received.  *sigh*

When I finish this tonight and send it off, I'm gonna need a drink.

Title: "Perspectives" (5/6)
Author: mijan
Rating: PG-13
Summary:"I can't fix it next time, Jim. I almost couldn't fix it the first time." McCoy reached up and touched Kirk's cheek. "It'll be okay."  A Starfleet Captain faces danger and death every day, but looking his own mortality in the face had been more than Kirk had been able to handle.  Even more, he couldn't accept that his best friend hadn't been able to face it either.  Now, it was time to face both.
Canon: Based in the ST:XI universe, but strongly influenced by TOS.
Characters: McCoy, Kirk, Spock, with ensemble appearances by Sulu, Uhura, a couple of random Ensigns, and most of the medical staff.
Notes: My immense thanks to my beta reader, classics_geek , and my test-reader, red_rahl . You guys are awesome!

Links: Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4

Disclaimer: Gene Roddenberry is God, Paramount Pictures is Pope, and this is blasphemy. Enjoy!

From the previous installment:

Jim heard his own voice join the cacophony clashing above him. At least he thought it was his own voice. He didn't know anymore. "I didn't mean to… I had to be… on the bridge. I'm sorry. Sorry. My fault. Wanted to see my crew. My ship. Couldn't stay there. I'm sorry, Bones. Bones…"
And Bones was saying, "It's alright, Jim. I've got you."
"I know you do, Bones. I know…"
There were strong arms lifting him, and another hand gripping his tightly – the voices were further away now – then the whoosh of turbolift doors, and the muffled thud of feet running down the hall…

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And now, the continuation...


(Consciousness and dreams blended together, neither particularly pleasant. No matter how drowsy or how deep he drifted, he couldn't forget why he was there...)


(To be continued...)

Title: "Perspectives" (3/6)
Author: mijan
Rating: PG-13
Summary: "Hell, I know I've lost people. I'm a doctor. It happens." McCoy looked up bleakly. "I can't lose Jim."
Canon: Based in ST:XI, strongly influenced by TOS.
Characters: McCoy, Kirk, Spock, with ensemble appearances by Sulu, Uhura, a couple of random Ensigns, and most of the medical staff.
Notes: My immense thanks to my beta reader, classics_geek , and my test-reader, red_rahl . You guys are awesome! Also, I'm posting earlier in the day because I am feeling stir-crazy. If I continue to feel stir-crazy, I might post the section after this before the end of the day.

Links: Part 1, Part 2

Disclaimer: Gene Roddenberry is God, Paramount Pictures is Pope, and this is blasphemy. Enjoy!


( Doctor McCoy was extremely quiet when Spock returned to sickbay... )

(To be continued...)

Title: "Hi Jim, I'm in Iowa."
Rating: PG-13
Author: mijan 
Ship: McCoy/Kirk implied.
Length: 870 words
Warnings: Character Death.
Disclaimer: Not mine. Just playing. Don't sue.


( Hi Jim, I'm in Iowa... )

After Sectus, a bunch of us got together and spent a few days running around London.  One afternoon, we crashed back at calyxess's hostel room, and I asked for a drabble prompt.  The prompt I received was "Luna and tears".  So, I started writing.  And as some of you know, I am INCAPABLE of drabbling.  Plots always seem to emerge.  One-hundred words?  Not going to happen.  This is what I got.

Title: "The Picture of a Hero"
Rating: PG-13
Word Count: 1,651
Ships: None
Characters: Colin Creevey, Luna Lovegood, Neville Longbottom
Genre:  Canon-based, missing-scene.