Seven Deadly Sins Meme - Day 2

DAY 2- Envy!

With this "Deadly Sin," I need to draw a careful distinction between Greed and Envy.  Material goods don't make me envious, although I'd often really like to have more shiny things.  Very little actually makes me truly envious, because I've stopped letting that be so important to me.  However, when I let myself think about it, there are a few things that, when I see them in the spotlight or am reminded that I lack these things, they make me feel a solid twist of envy.  So here they are, in no particular order.


1. Height.  I've always felt I should have been 6'1", because my significantly lesser height simply can't contain my awesomeness.  I don't FEEL short.  I never did.  And so when I am suddenly reminded, at various points in time, that I'm short, I feel a random flash of bitterness that I'm lacking about a foot of height that I SHOULD have, dammit.

2. Clear skin.  Just not fair, okay?  I'm clean, I've used every treatment known to mankind, and unless I use a steady supply of prescription meds just for my own vanity, I still break out like a teenage boy.  Yeah, I get envious of people who have naturally clear skin.

3. Anatomy that fits my gender.  Is that too much to ask? 

4. Perfect eyesight.  I wear contacts.  Most people don't even realize that I need corrective lenses unless they know me very well.  I've needed corrective lenses since I was 10.  I can't make out people's faces from three feet away without my glasses.  Most people don't think of glasses as a prosthetic, but ever since I was in Basic Training for the Army, that's all I can think of them as.  I had to wear these horrible "birth control glasses" while I was in training.  It's not the ugly factor I cared about.  It was that they were heavy, didn't fit right, gave me terrible headaches, got scratched easily, fogged up in the rain, flopped around while I ran, and bordered on torture.  For SIX MONTHS.  And I couldn't take them off, because without them, I couldn't see anything.  With corrective lenses, I was an expert rifleman.  Without them, I wouldn't have been able to shoot the broad side of a barn.  I was absolutely DEPENDENT on them.  To me, corrective lenses are a crutch and a prosthetic and it's terrifying when I've had them taken from me.  Someday, if my doctor says there are no contradictions, and I trust the technology a little bit better, I'm getting Lasik.

5. A spotlight.  Let me explain.  I don't actually give a shit about "fame" in the modern sense, so that's not what I'm talking about.  BUT... I love to entertain.  I got my first taste of a stage when I was 6, but then I joined a semi-pro chorus when I was 12 (it was an adult chorus, and I was the youngest member).  I fucking love to entertain.  I want a stage and a spotlight.  I want to create music for people to listen to.  I want to bring stories and characters to life.  I want an audience to take it all in.  And I want it to be ME up there.

6. The time, money, and resources needed to get a doctorate degree. 

7. Straight teeth.  Never got braces as a kid.  My teeth are healthy.  However, just like my height can't contain my awesomeness, I actually have a small mouth (save the wise cracks) that can't contain my teeth.  Most of them are okay, but I have this ONE that is severely crowded, and it actually kinda hurts.  I want a nice smile.


So, that's what makes me envious.  Huh... that almost seems innocent.  Tomorrow's installment, WRATH, ought to be more entertaining.

Fanvid: "Wherever You Will Go" - George Kirk, Jim&Bones

I've never posted a fanvid before.  I don't really know how to make fanvids.  But damn, do I get ideas.  I had this one concept in my mind for months.  I had the music and several sequences of video clips from the movie floating in my head.  I just had no idea how to turn it into a fanvid.

Then kimuracarter  showed me a Doctor Who fanvid she'd made, and told me it was her first and only fanvid.  It was REALLY good.   So... I decided to mention my idea for the Star Trek fanvid.  And she liked it. 

For the past week or so, she's been working on editing while we've bounced ideas back and forth.  I described vid sequences that I'd already had in mind.  She created other sequences.  She came up with this one brilliant sequence that defined the entire storyline of the vid, and we edited and cobbled concepts together around it.  She did all the actual vid editing herself, but this was a creative collaboration, and I'm beyond thrilled to have been a part of it. 

And when I saw the final product, it brought tears to my eyes.  Give it a watch.

Music: "Wherever You Will Go"  by "The Calling"
Rating: PG
Concept by mijan 
Vid Editing by kimuracarter 
Concept Summary:  George Kirk's dying wish is that when he's gone, someone will be there to watch out for his son.  In a last ditch act of hope, he sends out a message:  "Take care of him. - G. Kirk"  So close to a temporal anomaly, the message arrives years later - to a startled, reluctant, but loyal Leonard McCoy.

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