Star Trek Big Bang Fic status report.

[mijan]

Fic is currently at 54,000 words, 119 pages.  I expect another 2K to round off the rough draft.  It's been partially beta'd, and it's been test-read by a couple of people.  I still have to finish writing the wind-up scene, but I can do that.  It will be ready in time to submit to the Big Bang folks tonight.

I have to admit, I'm nervous as hell.  I've invested a lot of personal and emotional energy into this fic.  It's gotten into my head, hit on some very personal issues I have, and taken over my thought process.  I've dug into some pretty deep issues in this fic.  I got the plot bunny for it over three months ago, but I only began actively writing it after I got back from San Francisco. 

I guess I'm worried that the fic won't be well-received, or that it will fade into the mess of other Big Bang fics that will be posted and won't be noticed.  Normally, while I want my fics to do well, it's not something that gets me horribly keyed up.  This time, I'm actively nervous, and I really want this fic to be spectacular.  Need this fic to be spectacular.  Not sure why.  I just do. 

The wait between now and when it gets posted, however, is what's going to kill me.  All that time, not knowing how it'll be received.  *sigh*

When I finish this tonight and send it off, I'm gonna need a drink.

Comments

[mijan.livejournal.com]

I hope it does. I trust you, and I believe you, but it's just... you know. Uncertainty. YOUR fics get a LOT of attention (you've seen the number of comments you get, and people JUMP on your fics the instant they're posted), but I'm still obscure in this fandom and have a lot less faith that my stuff will be noticed. *wibble*

Also, I'm still wibbly on the title. Do you have any thoughts on the title?

And no, I'm not going to drunk too much. Right now, I'm drinking green tea. Yeah, hard-hitting stuff, right?

[vixys.livejournal.com]

To be honest, I think most of the reason mine get so much attention is because I tend to leave every chapter on a bitch of a cliffhanger. That tends to grab people's attention. I don't even mean to do it, most of the time. :D

Hmm, the title. Bound does work, but it is a little forgettable, if I'm honest. I'm fresh out of suggestions, though - mainly because it's ten to seven in the morning right now. When I get home tonight, I think I'm going to give your fic a thorough reading (if not betaing), and I might have some ideas then. I don't know. *facepalm*

Yeah, hard-hitting stuff, right?
:D ♥

Also, I assume you got your draft in on time?

[mijan.livejournal.com]

Yeah, you do tend to go for those cliff-hangers. I did a lot of that when I wrote chaptered stories in the HP universe.

"Bound" was a working title, mostly so that I could stop calling it "Training Sim Fic" when I saved the file. But yes, it's forgettable. I want something that really encapsulates it, so... I'm brainstorming. I hope they'll let me change the title later because... *drumroll please*

I just submitted it. With seven goddamned minutes to go before the deadline.

The final word count was 59,189. I know I'm going to do some more edits as I go. Hell, they said they'd accept stuff that was 90% done, so I won't feel too guilty if I add or tweak or alter things. (Like the title.) But yeah, the fic is fucking huge.

And I really need to go to bed now, but I'm too damned WIRED. *thud*

Let me send you the final copy. Look at it whenever you get a chance.

♥

Oh, and when you beta it... feel free to rip me apart if the "I love you, too, Bones" thing didn't work. I don't want this to be a romantic love at all. I want this to be a bond that forms between these two guys that's stronger than that. Also, tell me if the awards I give them seem over the top, or if it makes sense to you.

[vixys.livejournal.com]

Seven minutes? That's cutting in an eensy bit close. :D But it's in, and that's what counts. Congrats, really - considering I couldn't even make the deadline. :DD ♥

*tucks you into bed* *realises that at the time of typing you're probably either still there or already up* *facepalms*

Also yay, permission to rip apart. Seriously, English Lit is so boring this year. I need to analyse something. Seriously. *angry face*

Right, work now, betaing later. ♥♥

Also, this? "I don't want this to be a romantic love at all. I want this to be a bond that forms between these two guys that's stronger than that." YESSSSS.

[mijan.livejournal.com]

Yeah, it was close, but I'm good at that. I made it, didn't I? ;)

And... ha, yeah, I've been at work for four hours already. And I'm a freakin' zombie this morning, let me tell you. I need more coffee.

Yes, permission to rip apart. That's what I want MOST from my betas. I want them to rip it apart so I can make it better - as good as I can possibly make it - so that what gets posted for everyone else to read is the best I can do. So have fun ripping it apart!

And yeah... I'm aiming for that sort of bond that's so strong that romance would be a step backwards. That, I think, is Kirk/McCoy at its greatest. I hope I achieved that.

Also... I have made some further modifications to the fic. As they said, the first submission is a rough draft. Now it's time to make it SHINY. I shall send you the updated file shortly. :D