mijan | Oct. 13th, 2005

Okay, today was just a bad day regarding my fic. First, I find myself facing accusations of plagiarism. Some random wanker on the PageofPeril Yahoo group (the group run by azhure1 and wintermoon3 for their awesome fic, PSL) decided to accuse me of plagiarising the Draco Trilogy, claiming that I used quotes from Draco Veritas in my fic. I've never read Draco Veritas, so how the fuck could I plagiarize it? I didn't even read the first part of the trilogy until this past winter, and then, I didn't even really like it... just not a style I particularly enjoy... hence why I never read the last parts. It was HET for heaven's sake! Draco/Hermione... *shudders*

And then, just a few minutes ago, I got this lovely flame. Just what I need to solidify EVERY freaking uncertainty I had about this last chapter. Now I feel like I have to go back and rewrite. I was nervous as hell about this chapter in the first place... I was worried about being over-dramatic, but in contrast, what if it wasn't dramatic enough for a grand finale? And then, after 16 chapters of Harry and Draco alone in the woods, it was going to be vastly different from the rest of the fic anyway, having them back at Hogwarts, so I had to deal with a major shift in the fic. Did I rush the ending? Did it suck? Should I have taken a more conservative route? I can admit that real life was a major distraction while I was writing it, with all the insane things happening, but that's no excuse. I don't know, but now, it's almost 3:00 AM, I'm freezing cold because my body is shutting down from lack of sleep, but I'm too upset to go to bed. I need to edit the chapter now. I can't just leave it like that. I wasn't 100% certain about the chapter in the first place, and I knew it wasn't as good as the previous chapter... oh dear. I'm rambling... I'm just too upset right now. I think I'll go have a cup of tea. No rest for the weary.