mijan | Star Trek Big Bang Fic status report.

Fic is currently at 54,000 words, 119 pages. I expect another 2K to round off the rough draft. It's been partially beta'd, and it's been test-read by a couple of people. I still have to finish writing the wind-up scene, but I can do that. It will be ready in time to submit to the Big Bang folks tonight.

I have to admit, I'm nervous as hell. I've invested a lot of personal and emotional energy into this fic. It's gotten into my head, hit on some very personal issues I have, and taken over my thought process. I've dug into some pretty deep issues in this fic. I got the plot bunny for it over three months ago, but I only began actively writing it after I got back from San Francisco.

I guess I'm worried that the fic won't be well-received, or that it will fade into the mess of other Big Bang fics that will be posted and won't be noticed. Normally, while I want my fics to do well, it's not something that gets me horribly keyed up. This time, I'm actively nervous, and I really want this fic to be spectacular. Need this fic to be spectacular. Not sure why. I just do.

The wait between now and when it gets posted, however, is what's going to kill me. All that time, not knowing how it'll be received. *sigh*

When I finish this tonight and send it off, I'm gonna need a drink.

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*big hugs!* I know that everything is going to be GREAT! I have 100 percent faith in you and your fic! *hugs again!*

I'll send you an updated version shortly.

*hugs back*

Okay. *hugs MORE!*

*hugs* Totally feeling with you. And sad as it is - long fics only get as many comments (or fewer) than shorter fics. Nature of the beast.

Looking forward to your story - I'm curious now!

Well... interested in reading it early? I could always use an extra set of eyes.

I understand the feeling, but you has at least one reader totally excited to read it right here. :)

It's a start. But I'm still wibbly.

:sends good luck vibes your way:

I can't promise to read it. I don't read a lot of longer fic for a variety of reasons, but I will promise to give it a chance if it looks like it might hook me.

Sorry I can't offer more hope, but wishing you all the best.

Hmmm... aside from the fact that you don't prefer long stories, what sorts of stories catch your interest? And I'll tell you, this one is pretty action-packed and actually reads quickly. Kinda sucks you in.

I go for shortish reads because I hate reading off a screen (it kills my eyes and makes me really sleepy) and can't afford to print fic out. I've also had bad luck with some long fic that's just full of padding and ends up going nowhere, so I'm kind of wary for that reason also.

Action I can go for. I like plotty stuff when I'm in the right mood to digest it. I like suspence and cliffhangers in longer fics, which I need to keep me interested.

I understand the difficulty with reading on a screen. I've printed out fics for my mother because she has the same difficulty.

I also know what you mean about long fics with lots of empty padding that goes nowhere, and I PROMISE you that this fic does NOT do that. It's pretty much hard-hitting and plot-driven from start to finish. There's definitely suspense and cliff-hanger scene endings. So, maybe when this is posted, it might be worth it to read? *is hopeful*

I know I've probably said this before, but this fic is going to make an impact. And even if it doesn't become one of those about three fics that're circled around the fandom forever and a day, it's a deeply affecting piece of fiction - and that's more significant than the fact that it's fanfiction. You dug into your issues, and the personal side is resonant and rich, and the reader hurts as the writer hurts.

/rambling

Don't drink too much, bb. That leads to very few good things. :D ♥

I hope it does. I trust you, and I believe you, but it's just... you know. Uncertainty. YOUR fics get a LOT of attention (you've seen the number of comments you get, and people JUMP on your fics the instant they're posted), but I'm still obscure in this fandom and have a lot less faith that my stuff will be noticed. *wibble*

Also, I'm still wibbly on the title. Do you have any thoughts on the title?

And no, I'm not going to drunk too much. Right now, I'm drinking green tea. Yeah, hard-hitting stuff, right?

To be honest, I think most of the reason mine get so much attention is because I tend to leave every chapter on a bitch of a cliffhanger. That tends to grab people's attention. I don't even mean to do it, most of the time. :D

Hmm, the title. Bound does work, but it is a little forgettable, if I'm honest. I'm fresh out of suggestions, though - mainly because it's ten to seven in the morning right now. When I get home tonight, I think I'm going to give your fic a thorough reading (if not betaing), and I might have some ideas then. I don't know. *facepalm*

Yeah, hard-hitting stuff, right?
:D ♥

Also, I assume you got your draft in on time?

Yeah, you do tend to go for those cliff-hangers. I did a lot of that when I wrote chaptered stories in the HP universe.

"Bound" was a working title, mostly so that I could stop calling it "Training Sim Fic" when I saved the file. But yes, it's forgettable. I want something that really encapsulates it, so... I'm brainstorming. I hope they'll let me change the title later because... *drumroll please*

I just submitted it. With seven goddamned minutes to go before the deadline.

The final word count was 59,189. I know I'm going to do some more edits as I go. Hell, they said they'd accept stuff that was 90% done, so I won't feel too guilty if I add or tweak or alter things. (Like the title.) But yeah, the fic is fucking huge.

And I really need to go to bed now, but I'm too damned WIRED. *thud*

Let me send you the final copy. Look at it whenever you get a chance.

♥

Oh, and when you beta it... feel free to rip me apart if the "I love you, too, Bones" thing didn't work. I don't want this to be a romantic love at all. I want this to be a bond that forms between these two guys that's stronger than that. Also, tell me if the awards I give them seem over the top, or if it makes sense to you.

Seven minutes? That's cutting in an eensy bit close. :D But it's in, and that's what counts. Congrats, really - considering I couldn't even make the deadline. :DD ♥

*tucks you into bed* *realises that at the time of typing you're probably either still there or already up* *facepalms*

Also yay, permission to rip apart. Seriously, English Lit is so boring this year. I need to analyse something. Seriously. *angry face*

Right, work now, betaing later. ♥♥

Also, this? "I don't want this to be a romantic love at all. I want this to be a bond that forms between these two guys that's stronger than that." YESSSSS.

Yeah, it was close, but I'm good at that. I made it, didn't I? ;)

And... ha, yeah, I've been at work for four hours already. And I'm a freakin' zombie this morning, let me tell you. I need more coffee.

Yes, permission to rip apart. That's what I want MOST from my betas. I want them to rip it apart so I can make it better - as good as I can possibly make it - so that what gets posted for everyone else to read is the best I can do. So have fun ripping it apart!

And yeah... I'm aiming for that sort of bond that's so strong that romance would be a step backwards. That, I think, is Kirk/McCoy at its greatest. I hope I achieved that.

Also... I have made some further modifications to the fic. As they said, the first submission is a rough draft. Now it's time to make it SHINY. I shall send you the updated file shortly. :D

i for one am looking forward to it, based on your previous work, and it'll most likely be the first thing i go looking for. the way your write and plot is brilliant.

Trust me... if I know you (and I do), your fic will be posted and soon afterward, the ST fandom will implode on itself or something. <3

ETA: Also, I'm sorry I missed you the other night! I have a bad habit of leaving my gmail on all night. I feel as if I missed a golden opportunity regarding this fic of yours! =( =(..... ;)

Edited 2009-09-16 03:45 (UTC)

Star Trek Big Bang Fic status report.

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