Star Trek Big Bang Fic status report.

[mijan]

Fic is currently at 54,000 words, 119 pages.  I expect another 2K to round off the rough draft.  It's been partially beta'd, and it's been test-read by a couple of people.  I still have to finish writing the wind-up scene, but I can do that.  It will be ready in time to submit to the Big Bang folks tonight.

I have to admit, I'm nervous as hell.  I've invested a lot of personal and emotional energy into this fic.  It's gotten into my head, hit on some very personal issues I have, and taken over my thought process.  I've dug into some pretty deep issues in this fic.  I got the plot bunny for it over three months ago, but I only began actively writing it after I got back from San Francisco. 

I guess I'm worried that the fic won't be well-received, or that it will fade into the mess of other Big Bang fics that will be posted and won't be noticed.  Normally, while I want my fics to do well, it's not something that gets me horribly keyed up.  This time, I'm actively nervous, and I really want this fic to be spectacular.  Need this fic to be spectacular.  Not sure why.  I just do. 

The wait between now and when it gets posted, however, is what's going to kill me.  All that time, not knowing how it'll be received.  *sigh*

When I finish this tonight and send it off, I'm gonna need a drink.

Comments

[vixys.livejournal.com]

Seven minutes? That's cutting in an eensy bit close. :D But it's in, and that's what counts. Congrats, really - considering I couldn't even make the deadline. :DD ♥

*tucks you into bed* *realises that at the time of typing you're probably either still there or already up* *facepalms*

Also yay, permission to rip apart. Seriously, English Lit is so boring this year. I need to analyse something. Seriously. *angry face*

Right, work now, betaing later. ♥♥

Also, this? "I don't want this to be a romantic love at all. I want this to be a bond that forms between these two guys that's stronger than that." YESSSSS.

[mijan.livejournal.com]

Yeah, it was close, but I'm good at that. I made it, didn't I? ;)

And... ha, yeah, I've been at work for four hours already. And I'm a freakin' zombie this morning, let me tell you. I need more coffee.

Yes, permission to rip apart. That's what I want MOST from my betas. I want them to rip it apart so I can make it better - as good as I can possibly make it - so that what gets posted for everyone else to read is the best I can do. So have fun ripping it apart!

And yeah... I'm aiming for that sort of bond that's so strong that romance would be a step backwards. That, I think, is Kirk/McCoy at its greatest. I hope I achieved that.

Also... I have made some further modifications to the fic. As they said, the first submission is a rough draft. Now it's time to make it SHINY. I shall send you the updated file shortly. :D