Star Trek Big Bang Fic status report.

[mijan]

Fic is currently at 54,000 words, 119 pages.  I expect another 2K to round off the rough draft.  It's been partially beta'd, and it's been test-read by a couple of people.  I still have to finish writing the wind-up scene, but I can do that.  It will be ready in time to submit to the Big Bang folks tonight.

I have to admit, I'm nervous as hell.  I've invested a lot of personal and emotional energy into this fic.  It's gotten into my head, hit on some very personal issues I have, and taken over my thought process.  I've dug into some pretty deep issues in this fic.  I got the plot bunny for it over three months ago, but I only began actively writing it after I got back from San Francisco. 

I guess I'm worried that the fic won't be well-received, or that it will fade into the mess of other Big Bang fics that will be posted and won't be noticed.  Normally, while I want my fics to do well, it's not something that gets me horribly keyed up.  This time, I'm actively nervous, and I really want this fic to be spectacular.  Need this fic to be spectacular.  Not sure why.  I just do. 

The wait between now and when it gets posted, however, is what's going to kill me.  All that time, not knowing how it'll be received.  *sigh*

When I finish this tonight and send it off, I'm gonna need a drink.

Comments

[anotherdance.livejournal.com]

:sends good luck vibes your way:

I can't promise to read it. I don't read a lot of longer fic for a variety of reasons, but I will promise to give it a chance if it looks like it might hook me.

Sorry I can't offer more hope, but wishing you all the best.

[mijan.livejournal.com]

Hmmm... aside from the fact that you don't prefer long stories, what sorts of stories catch your interest? And I'll tell you, this one is pretty action-packed and actually reads quickly. Kinda sucks you in.

[anotherdance.livejournal.com]

I go for shortish reads because I hate reading off a screen (it kills my eyes and makes me really sleepy) and can't afford to print fic out. I've also had bad luck with some long fic that's just full of padding and ends up going nowhere, so I'm kind of wary for that reason also.

Action I can go for. I like plotty stuff when I'm in the right mood to digest it. I like suspence and cliffhangers in longer fics, which I need to keep me interested.

[mijan.livejournal.com]

I understand the difficulty with reading on a screen. I've printed out fics for my mother because she has the same difficulty.

I also know what you mean about long fics with lots of empty padding that goes nowhere, and I PROMISE you that this fic does NOT do that. It's pretty much hard-hitting and plot-driven from start to finish. There's definitely suspense and cliff-hanger scene endings. So, maybe when this is posted, it might be worth it to read? *is hopeful*